I never thought I would write a blog. I’ve always felt a little unsure about them. Like the world has gone mad. Everyone wants to paint a picture of their ‘So called perfect life,’ that’s not so perfect in reality. Everyone’s an expert. Sally went to Phuket for two weeks and now has an ‘expertise’ travel blog. Barry did an online course for £40 and is now a nutritional bone structure adviser, (it could be a thing.) That was until I came across a blog that changed how I felt. A blog that I could relate to. It gave me the extra push I needed to face my fears, and have a much needed surgery I had put off for 7 years. And I thought, well if a blog can help others like that, it’s worth becoming a ‘blogger.’
See I used to be someone who ran away from fears, shoved anything scary I could, so far under the rug. From relationship problems, to serious health matters. My partner so much as tried to speak to me about my dislocating knee’s, I would feel a surge of panic come over me, and shut the conversation down. As a born worrier, which lends itself nicely to anxiety, being told I needed my legs broken and realigned, was something I was waaaay to anxious to ever face.
I had always been this way, even in other areas in my life. Putting off that dreaded, ‘ We need to talk,’ conversation with a partner, or spending years suffering with depression, yet not wanting to face it and ask for help. I just ignored, in hope everything would just go away. Facing my fears was never my strong suit.
But it dawned on me this morning just how much has changed in my life, since I actually started facing fears head on. Two years on not only did I talk, and get help for depression, I finally had, and am recovering from the much needed knee surgery. And also now able to face any kind of confrontation, plus I met someone who loves and supports me. Now, I’m not writing this as a, ‘Hey, come over here and look at how great I’m doing.’ But in a way of, I never thought two years on I would actually feel proud of where I am, so I know It’s a place anyone putting of fears right now, can come to.
The changes happened as I slowly started putting myself out there more, and started facing fears in my personal life, and work life, so out of my comfort zone, that my anxieties actually began to decrease, therefore my happiness increased.
So have you had a niggle for a while that your too scared to face? Be it a relationship problem ? Work issue ? An addiction you don’t want to admit you have? A health scare you know you need to deal with? Or a relationship you know you need to walk away from? Now, I am no expert, but my experience of facing fears are, it makes you feel empowered, strong, and I would never want to go back to that girl running away from everything that she feared.
So tell yourself today, you will be brave, and take those baby steps towards those fears.
I was once told it feels better to move towards a problem , than it does away from it…….
They were right. x