Fresh Starts & New beginnings

By next week social media will be flooded with ‘Fresh Starts’ & ‘Goodbye 2017’ quotations. With a new year comes a new energy, a new hope and a motivation to start again. Goals are great to set for 2018, as there is always room for improvement in ourselves, but firstly give yourself a pat on the back for everything you did achieve in 2017. Any challenges you overcame, before you set yourself new goals for 2018 (using the things you didn’t do in 2017)

For me in 2017, I have come on in leaps and bounds in terms of mind-set and confidence.  My personal achievement was finally booking surgery for a long pre-existing health problem, which is a big step in the right direction for me. But new goals and new beginnings really can happen when ever you choose.

New beginnings can be exciting, but for many also really daunting.  There will be many people not feeling the joy of the new year bells ringing on new years eve, I recall that feeling oh so well.  I still remember starting over. I lost my relationship, my job, my home (and my marbles) all within a few months and I spent New Years eve in bed feeling extremely sorry for myself .  I did not approach any of this with a strong willed mind-set. I stayed in bed, I cried for way too long and I felt like things would never be ok.   But in time I did come to realise;  I didn’t actually like that Job. That home was not one I called my own.  And the relationship sadly had been broken for years. So I stopped seeing it as a negative, I stopped seeing it as I had hit rock bottom, and I started to view it as this was my ‘opportunity’ to change things up.

This was my chance to try my hand at a career in something I really wanted to do. I had nothing to lose.  I had worked in the financial industry previously, it paid the bills, so like you do, I went for jobs in the same field to start.  As I sat awaiting  an interview in the stuffy office corridor, I could hear the same familiar words being thrown around from the office ” Have Aviva called back ” ,”Let them know it will be a 15% sub-charge”.  A feeling of panic came over me and the realisation that, ” If I get this job- I’m in the same place”.  So I left, I ran, before they even called me in. I’m so glad I did.  It lead me onto train and work with vulnerable young people and their families, which is something I am passionate about.

It may of taken a couple of years, but I moved from my lovely home town and I now live in my favourite City, Brighton.  In a place I call home, it has all the touches that make it home and it really is my happy place.  And I’m in a relationship that flows, clicks and brings me a lot of happiness.

I feel like 2017 turned out how I had hoped, and none of this is to say ”hey come over here, so I can gloat at how great things are going” ….but to show that, Iv been there and yes new starts can feel over whelming.

But remember, if you feel like you’re at rock bottom, you’re not,  you are just re-decorating your life…………….

 how it should be x

Facing Fears

So here I am, writing a blog. Iv always felt a bit unsure about blogs, like the world has gone mad, everyone wants to paint a picture of their ‘perfect life’ that’s not so perfect in reality. Everyone’s an expert. Sally went to spain for two weeks and now has a travel blog.  Barry did an online course for £40 and is now a nutritional bone structure advisor . ( Could be a thing ) But  I then came across a blog that changed how I felt. 

See iv been putting off a major surgery for over 7 years now, my partner so much as spoke to me about my dislocating knee, I would feel a surge of panic and shut the conversation down.  As a born worrier, being told I needed my leg broken (both) and realigned was something I was waaaay to anxious to ever face.

But these past couple of years things changed, I faced fears in my personal life and work life so out of  my comfort zone, that my anxieties have decreased, therefore my happiness has increased.  And this lead me on to finally research the surgery more, which brought me to this inspiring blog.   It gave me the insight, the courage and the push to finally book surgery.

So if a blog can help me feel positive about a subject I avoided for so long and make a difference, just by reading about someone else I can relate to, then to be able to help others in the same way is worth becoming a ‘blogger’.

I was once told it feels better to move towards a problem , than it does away from it….

They were right.  x